Every Sunday morning like clockwork I am in the library. I’ve always loved the library as a child because I could read books, write in my journal, and let my imagination run wild in the stillness of a silent library. As an adult I still find myself in the library doing the exact same thing. The library has been my biggest liaison in helping me work through my doctoral classes and write my dissertation. Although I graduate in 2017, the end goal seems so far away.
The doctoral journey has been the most challenging and complex situation I have ever experienced in my life. Yesterday on the way home from the library, I had a mini-melt down. Wondering when will I ever have a normal life. A normal life where I can socialize more often. A normal life where I don’t study every day. A normal life where I am not held to a word count. As I wiped my tears and listened to some Kanye, I quickly gained my composure.
I’m not gonna lie…this shit is hard! But I’ll be damned if I go ABD (All but Dissertation). The doctoral journey calls for a high level of discipline. A level of discipline that I have been able to maintain and at times exceed. The doctoral process is a lonely. Every time I feel like giving up, I know that I have come too far and spent too much money. I suppose everything I feel is all a part of the doctoral process. Even though I feel indifferent at the moment, I will be in the library this week. The dissertation I am crafting is influential. In fact…the dissertation is bigger than me! I am just the messenger that is called to bring light to the explored narrative.
I will continue to post more doctoral updates, with the assumption that it can help someone in their academic journey. But as of right now…I am literally writing for my life.
Until next time…
-Peach
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