In Bali, some unresolved issues came up for me. That’s how healing works…we can’t pick and choose when our soul is ready to do “the work”. What I discovered about myself was, I haven’t been open to love. Open to love in the romantic sense. Over the last few years, while being single I have worked on loving myself and have done a great job.
However, I haven’t been open to receiving love from a romantic partner. I’ve dated, my heart hasn’t been open. To think of opening my heart again makes me feel vulnerable. It’s a vulnerable feeling, making me want to cry. There’s an untapped issue I haven’t dealt with. I have done a great job of protecting myself. I haven’t let anyone in. It feels safer that way. Being able to control my narrative of hurt, brings me peace. Let’s be honest, some people be out here living wild. Also, the dating scene… My aura cannot tolerate B.S.
I know I have residing fears from my previous relationship. I refuse to let those fears stop my love life. I’m willing to take the risk and let love in. Now that I’ve identified my issue, I am actively working on the issue. My first step started in Bali. I was open to conversation, we formed a connection. We later exchanged numbers. He’s a dope person. Who knows what’s to become of it. In my actions, I need the universe to understand and know I’m open.
We’ll see how this risk-taking thing goes.
Until Next Time,
-Peach
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